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My Zayde: A Recollection

Poems by R.M. Usatinsky

Illustrations by Judith Sol Dyess

25TH ANNIVERSARY EDITION
1994 - 2019

Introduction to the 25th Anniversary Edition

A late bloomer, I received my bachelor's degree in playwriting from The Theater School at DePaul University just one week shy of my 29th birthday in June 1992. A week later, I found myself sitting in the office of Dr. Albert Erlebacher, professor of history at DePaul, talking about a new master's degree program he was about to spearhead.

 

DePaul's master of arts in interdisciplinary studies seemed too good to be true; a multidisciplinary curriculum that I could design choosing from a plethora of courses offered by both the English and History departments. And the icing on the cake was I'd able to choose between doing a traditional master's thesis or a self-guided final project, the latter being both intriguing and seemingly more fitting to my un-orthodox academic inclinations.

I enrolled to begin my second degree at DePaul and began the two-year evening program that fall. From the outset, I knew I had made a great choice and enjoyed the course work, classes, content and professors.

Towards the end of the first year, I again found myself in discussions with Dr. Erlebacher about my choice regarding the final project. He asked me which were my favorite classes so far from both disciplines and I responded by saying how much I enjoyed writing for magazines with Ted Anton, poetry with Richard Jones (both on the English side) and my participation in the history department's collaboration with the University of Illinois' oral history project on Chicago's Bridgeport neighborhood.

I told Dr. Erlebacher of my interests in writing poetry and that I had really enjoyed interviewing people for the oral history project. Then it came to me. I had been wanting to write a book about the life of my great-grandfather, who was one of the most influential people in my own life story who had passed away more than a dozen years earlier. Erlebacher suggested I write a book of biographical poetry that paid homage to my great-grandfather's life. He said I could interview family members and people who might have their own recollections to share that could serve as the basis for some of the poems. Then, I could self-publish the book creating an authentic interdisciplinary project combining writing, research, editing, oral history and all the elements required for publishing a book and setting up a legitimate entity by which to do so; in other words, establish my own independent publishing company.

 

And it came to be that in the spring of 1994, My Zayde: A Recollection, was set for release.

 

The book contained thirty original poems chronicling the life and times of my great-grandfather, Sam Satin (nee Yehoshua Usatinsky, 1890-1980). The poems were accompanied by fourteen original drawings by Catalan-born artist Judith Sol-Dyess, who was a former student of mine whose drawings I had remembered and admired.

During the process of writing and publishing the book, I interviewed family members and a half-dozen people who new my great-grandfather, providing wonderful and inspiring stories, anecdotes and vignettes about his life. Once the poems were finished, I began the task of setting up the publishing entity and sourcing book printers, ultimately selecting one in nearby Michigan. I also had to manage the acquisition of the ISBN numbers for both the cloth and paperback editions as well as the Library of Congress catalog number and copyright. Finally, I brought my dear friend, Rich Smith, on board to select the font and design and layout the book.

The books—all six boxes and 500 copies worth—arrived at my apartment one morning and all I remember is the feeling of total elation that overcame me; all the hard work and challenges had finally paid off the moment I gave my signature to the UPS driver.

Two weeks later—about a month before graduation—I presented the book at Hamakor Gallery in Skokie to about 60 close friends, family members, colleagues from Chicago's Columbia College, where I had been teaching English composition and poetry that year; and my faculty advisors from DePaul, including Dr. Erlebacher and his English department counterpart, Dr. James Fairhall.

Looking back at the original poems all these years later, it's easy to recognize this as an amatuer work, unsophisticated, unpolished and seemingly hastily arranged, all of which I take responsibility for but with the caveat that while I was doing all the work necessary to publish a book, I also had other classes, part-time teaching during the week and my job—and primary source of income—waiting tables on the weekends at Bub City, Lettuce Entertain You Enterprise's most popular restaurant at the time. 

In revising the poems for the 25th anniversary edition, I wanted to make as few modifications to the original text as possible, and succeeded in doing so, making only minor changes I felt improved the overall quality and integrity of the poems. As the revised version would be earmarked exclusively as a digital only edition, I decided to also add some photographs from my personal archives.

I still look at this as a work in progress and thanks to technology (and the fact that I work as my own webmaster!), I revisit these poems often and will be the first to confess that I do occasionally tweak a word or two here and there as times go by. But that's the beauty of writing, that it's never really finished, not in the writer's lifetime or beyond. These poems are living thingscollections of ideas, words, lines, stanzas and imagesthat convey different meanings, emotions and interpretations to every single person who encounters them.

In the end, this collection of poems remains my personal tribute to a man who touched my life and who touched the lives of so many who knew, loved, admired and respected him. He was, and will always be...my zayde.

 

R.M.U. August 19, 2023, Rijswijk

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The Fifth Candle of Chanukah

 

In the cold grayness of a winter's day,

where solitude and wind part the clouds

long enough for a ray of sunlight to shine in

through the dirty window

and warm the cold, damp room—

long enough to etch a smile upon faces

where frowns are usually worn

sunlight

 

like the drop of oil that burned

for eight days and eight nights,

that lit the temple

and branded life and salvation upon the

souls of the Macabees;

behold, a miracle of light

for a miracle of life

 

the family gathers round the bed;

water on the boil, the kettle smoking steam

sundown

we light the fifth candle of Chanukah

 

Baruch atah Adonai,

Elohaynu Melech Ha'Olam,

Asher lidyshanu b'mitsvo-tov

V'etzy-vanu, l'had lik nair,

Shel Chanukah

 

the candle is lit and burning bright,

a child is born unto the night;

he does not cry nor sing aloud,

his pale blue eyes with destiny endowed;

his supple skin already holds

the scars of a life yet to unfold

 

his triumphant arrival into a changing world,

a life before our eyes unfurled;

though challenges before him soon await,

the hands that hold him are hands of fate;

when the candles have melted

and their flames flickered out,

the sixth candle of Chanukah will burn, no doubt

 

and so will the seventh as will the eighth,

for eighty-nine years through love and through faith;

the days will pass quickly, so will the years,

good times, bad times, laughter and tears;

come let us celebrate this wondrous night,

as the fifth candle of Chanukah burns ever so bright

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My Pavoloch

 

In a hollow valley

on hallowed soil

in a little stone house

swept neat and tidy by a little straw broom,

a baby is born in my Pavoloch;

restless birds singing at the dawn of life;

a child, sucks in vain on a crust of bread,

on his mother’s withered bosom

 

dust rises from the earth,

in my Pavoloch; old men take the sun,

smoking what they’ve rolled; tired women

hang themselves out on the lines;

this, too, is my Pavoloch

 

in my Pavoloch people sing and people dance

there is dirt on the old men’s shoes;

women laugh so hard, so hard they cry;

everyone stinks of celebration in my Pavoloch

 

and sons of fathers go off to big cities

they go off and they never return; sons of

mothers who shall win great bounties; but the

fathers know what the mothers know not, their

sons will never return to their Pavoloch

 

an old man dies beside a dung heap,

an old man, a pious man, on his way to a

better place; no cold dwellings, no damp shirt

or fraying talis; his body will freeze with the

night and thaw with the dawn; there is death,

too, in my Pavoloch

 

but with every death comes a new life,

and a baby is born in my Pavoloch; and like

the restless birds that sing at the dawn of life,

a baby cries out in the silence of a new day

 

and when he is grown to be a fine man,

a fine of Pavoloch he will be; and he will

leave the place where he was born and go

forth out into the world with his dreams,

and he will remember his Pavoloch

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The Road to Krasilov

 

On the road to another town;

one hoof beat—two;

a rattling cart shakes bags of grain

 

on a dusty road to another town;

the next town,

and the next town,

the next town after that;

trying to persuade the sun to shine but

one more lonely hour

 

the road to Krasilov;

dark in day as is at night;

wily crows watching every move,

awaiting even a modest spill;

an old oak telling lies to the wind,

how could its branches bend any lower?

 

“Where do you take your grain today, young man?”

“To Krasilov,” the young man tells the tree;

“To see that young girl again?”

“I could easily earn more in Kiev,” replies the young man;

“Yes, I suppose you very well could”

 

another lonely mile and another lonely sunset,

day escapes beneath an elastic horizon;

the young man has been fooled again

but his purpose is clear his will intact;

he will endure the shameless elements:

the biting wind, the stony ground,

and the raindrops falling hard like needles

piercing his supple skin

 

he carries on upon the road to Krasilov;

to sell his grain and to pick his flower

(a budding rose); thunder bursts awaken

him from a restless daydream; crows have

stolen his grain but love awaits him,

on the road to Krasilov

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The Grain Merchant

 

From shtetl to shteltl

the grain merchant

bag in hand

packs a little case

collects a few old marigolds

has a sip of whiskey

sweet taste on his tongue

 

the grain merchant

sets off on his daily journey

sometimes takes a week

often takes its toll

collects a little money

has a sip of whiskey

bitter taste on his tongue

 

the grain merchant comes into town

weary and tired and hungry

grain to sell

stories to tell

collects a few new clients

a toast of whiskey—

l’chaim!, l’chaim!

 

and the grain merchant sets out for home

weary and tired and hungry

his family awaits him

with anticipation

for he’s collected a little money;

so, they boast and they toast a taste of whiskey

sweet taste on the tongue

of the grain merchant

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The Dung Heap

 

He dare not breathe,

the young man beneath the dung heap;

footsteps drawing near

soldiers ready long, smoky rifles

noxious vapors squeeze swollen temples

like python strangling its prey

 

a muffled sound screams out;

something jerks wild beneath the dung heap;

an inner quake sends an invisible jolt

to the surface of his skin;

the dung heap atop him rumbles like a volcano

about to burst, spewing its molten filling,

its red, acidic excrement flowing;

cascades of sweat and saliva gushing

from bloated pores;

night falls and the young man sleeps

beneath the dung heap

 

morning comes

the dew sleeps cool upon the dung heap;

blood clotted dry, crusted on broken skin;

the young man, nostrils burdened by the residue,

awakens, pushing his swollen finger

through the soggy mound

until it reaches the crisp morning air

 

slowly moving his head he plunges his lips

into the small hole he has made;

swallowing air,

kneading his way out of the clutches

of the womb-like dregs

that births him anew

spitting him out onto the cold, wet ground

 

warm fingers touches his thawing arm

but he is not afraid;

it is Moshe, a familiar and trusted friend,

extending a welcoming hand;

the soldiers have gone, there is work to be done,

bodies to bury and tears to dry,

that lie beside

the dung heap

Scars

 

Scars

have been seen

though not too often

by uncle: the one upon his back

by me: the one upon his hand

flesh that never healed

that bled for days

unattended to

 

scars

open wounds mended by

earth and prayer

ripped flesh torn open by unmerciful shrapnel

skin, parted, vulnerable to contamination

he looked at the gash

saw bubbling blood oozing froth from the void

like a rotting eruption

shaking the blood from his hand

trying to free his mind from disgust

but the vision remained

blood streaming a lake of fear

tears falling

happy to fall

happy to flow

from seeing

living eyes

 

scars

narrow rivers of elongated flesh

raised mounds of crippled skin

a ridge of oil painted upon a canvas

of supple dermis

a sealed fissure

a broken promise mended;

trying to smooth them out

flattening them over the damaged

landscape, spoiled by madness

and war; a place where winds no longer rage

where tears no longer sting;

gun shots ring out silent in the night air

flesh binding flesh upon nature’s masterpiece

of flawed perfection

 

scars

tiny reminders left upon his body

remembrance eternal

a permanent memoir

that never lies for it never could

a photograph that will never fade

a truth that can never be questioned

a reality of what once was

what might have been

a poem

a vignette

a song

a story told with only one, solitary

superfluous mass of pale gray skin

 

no need to know how the story ends

never curious about the circumstances

or messages hidden deep within

where are those scars now?

buried with his memory

deep within my soul

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Rose & Sam Satin

The Marriage of Yehoshua and Razel

 

A handsome couple

Yehoshua and Razel;

the shtetl swells with pride

mama Fegeh and papa Raphael make final preparations

young girls run from house to house collecting needed things

even grey clouds make way for festive rays of sunshine,

mandelbroyt and honey cakes baking themselves extra sweet

it is, of course, the sweetest of all occasions

 

the rebbe is late

his carriage null by the roadside

he rides his old mare bareback the rest of the way

has memorized his bruchas

penned a magniloquent sermon

the shtetl will stand in awe as he proclaims a

union under God

 

the rebbe arrives, is hurried inside

he brushes the journey from his suit

scrubs his hands clean

wipes the road from his face

his white talis looks like a floating angel

as it is removed from its dusty bag

 

the ceremony begins

tears fall from wrinkled eyes

that have known too much suffering

yet can still shed sweet water

Yehoshua is nervous, more than he anticipated

he wants everything should go just right

he remembers Nathanson’s wedding,

such mishugaas!

the screaming children

machetunim bickering

(the geese—oy vey the geese!)…

Yehoshua wants a nice wedding

 

the bride and groom beneath the chuppah stand,

the rebbe puffing out his chest

shoulders high, chin angling upwards

(what a showman!),

a perfect blend of sentiment and schmaltz

it will be a most beautiful wedding indeed

 

the rituals completed

the ketubah endorsed

a modest kiss

a hand for life

the breaking glass

mazel tov!

your love should last a lifetime

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Sam & Mary

First Born (Part One: Razel's Poem) 

Married life

husband and wife

clothes on the line

scrawny chickens boil

sipping cherry wine

 

summer brings a baby

linen clean and white

the first born child

a baby girl

cries gently in the night

 

baby Manya, first teeth, first steps

precious eyes so true

the most wondrous gift that God has given

a baby girl for you

 

shayna Manyaleh, the rebbe comes to name you

and to say his bruchas

celebrations soon begin

for luck everyone pinches your tuches

 

a parent’s pride in creating life

equaled only by their joy

they have made a girl, a beautiful girl

soon they’ll be blessed with a bouncing baby boy

 

at night when all is quiet and still

and baby is soundly asleep

Razel and Yehoshua lie awake in their bed

praying to God for their Manya to keep

 

 

(Part Two: Yehoshua’s Poem)

 

How does it feel to hold

life in your arms?

looking deep into her eyes

seeing your own eyes

deep, blue, serene, shtark

hold her tiny hand in yours

the Earth holding the moon in its safe orbit

 

touch her soft face with yours

unshaven and course

so fatherly and proud

kissing the layers of her supple neck

as she sleeps peacefully upon your moving chest

 

what do you feel when her soft hair

touches your lips?

what do you hear in her

coos and giggles?

what is like to hold life?

the life of your first born child;

may she bring you all the joy in the world

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Warsaw

Time to escape the brutality

of the modern age

to seek a safe haven

and new fortunes

free from hostile warriors

from a life that wasn’t a life

 

take a road

any road

where will these roads lead us?

through village and valley

hardship and anguish

to freedom and salvation

 

to Warsaw

where new tomorrows await

new possibilities, opportunities;

a better life awaits

nobody hunted, no one in fear:

freedom awaits

 

a journey of days and eternal nights

stale tea leaves brew in charred kettles;

a journey to freedom

but for a price:

where does the road to freedom begin?

what will it be like once we get there?

Warsaw

where the streets move below your feet,

vendors and thieves crowd bustling squares,

tongues fly—rapid fire—

tongues that have already tasted freedom;

waste it! rejoice in its sweetness

 

settle in to a dark and narrow flat,

arrange your documents and official papers,

you now have a country to call your own,

one that will care for and protect you and yours;

you are now Owsiej Usiatynski

you have rights, freedom and civic duties

but your time here is only fleeting for

real freedom awaits upon distant shores

 

so, you’ve heard about America

the land of plenty and

outstretched arms;

the place where dreams come true,

where handshakes lead to fortunes,

where a landsman—even though a stranger—

is a brother and friend

 

say goodbye to cold and friendly Warsaw,

be grateful for her sanctuary,

for giving you a son:

but now you must move on,

destiny awaits;

don’t look back,

Warsaw was but a transitory dream

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The RMS Aquitania

Four Hundred Hours

Thirty hours

on a ship of steel, steam and hope

wind tosses the massive boat

salty spray blinding its human cargo

bound for new frontiers

 

Fifty hours

and old man dies triumphantly

while only part of his purpose is fulfilled

it is still a triumph

his family will carry on his name

and his dream

 

Eighty hours

brittle bones creak in the

icy sea air

the bread is stale

tins of sardines impossible to open

with frostbitten fingers

luckily the whiskey still

tastes sweet

gulls, curious passersby

rest a while upon the ship’s

frowning bow

 

One hundred hours

A celebration below a

cloudy night sky

singing, laughter

drenched in gaiety

quickly transforming into

tears of jubilation

drowning every ounce

of fear

 

One hundred and fifty hours

the baby catches a cold

already making trouble

little Jakey

give him a few drops of

whiskey, he’ll sleep the

night away

 

Two hundred hours

this is becoming an endless journey

perhaps it is really death

disguised in a bittersweet ruse

mouths are salty and dry

tempers short and flaring

but only when strength briefly returns

 

Two hundred and fifty hours

pallid, drawn faces pleading to

heaven, praying to God for redemption

let the waters part bringing us land

let the heavens comfort us in soft white down

 

Three hundred hours

silence drifting upon the sea

like a baby’s whisper

pitiless waves heartlessly

toss the ship about

obeying nature’s violent behest

 

Three hundred and fifty hours

the once strong and unyielding

reduced to grievous despairing souls

expressionless faces staring into others

each one pitying the other more

how the human condition prevails

is a mystery, how they’ve survived

this far, beyond explanation

transcending reason; if only

for faith they shall survive

to suffer another day

 

Four hundred hours

cheers crying out at daybreak

those who found refuge in unsettling

dreams awaken, sharing in the jollity

raising their voices amongst the

thousands of jubilant voices—rejoicing

land drawing nearer, the journey

transforming into a distant, fading

memory; time for preparing cases and

wetting down unruly cowlicks

The ship's whistle blows, time for

well-wishing, hugging, kissing, handshaking;

 

the hours are now but a memory

a little taste of hell for an abundant serving

of heaven; may God bless them all in their

new lives, journeys and destinies

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Ellis Island

Disembarkation

Ellis Island

New York City

America

Processed

Examined

Lungs

Teeth

Eyes

Inoculated

Poked

Prodded

Name changed

New identity

New world

New opportunities

Family

Friends

Freedom

Money

Dreams

Hope

Prosperity

All things new

Port of entry

Passport stamped

Immigrant status

Uncertainties

The future

Awaits

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Mein Zunim (My Sons)

Settled into America

working long days

earning hard cash

paid by the piece

Chicago town

stony roads and

dirty rain that stains

little boys’ tattered trousers

as they play in the muddy yard

 

Jakey and Alex,

mein zunim

watching them outside

like boys they play

rough and tumble, smiling faces

milk moustaches and chocolate teeth

help mama set the table

the napkin goes on that side

the fork on top, two spoons

go there, one for borscht

another for tea; a butter knife

 

such good boys mein zunim

time for school, to learn,

make friends and grow up too quick

don’t come home too late,

tomorrow is Shabbos

sleep, sleep you mischievous boys

shluf mein zunim, shluf.

wake up it’s time for shul

wash your faces and make your beds

put your Shabbos suits on and comb your hair

 

Jake, Jake, the trouble you make!

threw another stone through the

neighbor's window; glass shatters

Mrs. Perlstein screams:

“Jakey, I’m going to come downstairs

and pull your hair!”

Jakey makes a face and mocks:

Jakey, I’m going to come downstairs and

pull your hair!

Razel makes a stern face, Jakey’s head bows low

Razel swats him a good one on the tuches

as he waddles past, giggling his way through

the house and to his room

 

Alex, mein Alekel

such a quiet and nice boy

sits on papa’s knee tickling

papa’s moustache;

listens to the radio

fixed with purpose, swallowing

every word, every sound;

a curious boy

observing motion, stillness

nature and people

plays nice games with the

neighborhood children

shares his mandlbroyt with

Sammy Soroka

 

and how I watched mein zunim grow

from small, frail boys—yinglekh

to young men in tailored suits with

thick hair, strong hands and

good hearts; and such wondrous things

mein zunim know; about the world and

life and the whole entire universe

 

how proud you make me

how proud any father would be

to have zunim

like mein zunim

The West Side

I never saw bricks standing so tall one

on top of the other; buildings edging up

skyward; I wonder if bricks standing so

tall could reach the sky; how could people

live up so high? and walk up three flights of

stairs? vey iz mir! 

 

I never saw streets stretch so wide, so long; 

where could these streets lead? I wonder if

they could stretch all the way to the holy land;

how could someone walk down such long and

endless streets? walking miles and miles and

miles; vey iz mir! such streets; and I never saw

grass so green and tall, or flowers so yellow, or

a blue sky so very blue as this blue sky; and here

I will make my family a home, on the west side;

14th Street, Keeler, Tripp, Kildare, Karlov, Kostner,

12th Street, Grenshaw, Roosevelt Road, 15th Street,

16th Street, 22nd Street, Independence Boulevard,

Douglas Boulevard, The Russian Shul, Zimbler's

(they had everything there!), Turovitz Grocery,

Zweig's, Perlman's, Cohn's Shoes, Segal Shoes, 

The Lawndale Theatre, The Central Park, The Gold,

The Marbro, The Paradise, Carl's, Fluky's, The Liberty

Bank, Silversteins, Horwich Bakery; such a place!

 

the west side; where Ben Gurion spoke at a parade

outside Pinsky Hebrew Shul; my little Tibie presented

him with a bouquet of flowers; the west side; where life

was sunlit, clean, and everything was new  and everyone

was young; where you knew who your friends were; you

knew who your family was; you knew your kids' friends'

names; you knew time was precious, that life was for living;

on the west side; where you could sleep in Garfield Park

on a hot summer night and the only thing that would bother

you were the mosquitoes and the yentes kvetching; but even

that was okay, on the west side;

where you said good morning to your neighbor, where you

knew your neighbor and knew your neighbor's business

(even if it wasn't your business); where you went to shul on

Saturday morning; when you actually had Shabbos clothes;

when you stayed after services not just for the honey cake

and whiskey, but to see your friends and greet them with

hearty handshakes of Gut Shabbos...on the west side;

where you made your home, where you settled down, where

you raised your family and lived a life unlike any life; where

you dreamed dreams unlike any dreams of old and where you

could walk down streets so long and wide, see buildings so

high you thought they reached the sky; where you paved the

streets with gold dust dreams, built your own skyscrapers with

tall ideals; where you spent your days, your nights and your

holy festivals; where you saw your dreams of yesterday bloom

and your hopes for tomorrow sprouting like fertile seeds;

 

where the limits of success had no boundaries, no frontiers,

for success was limitless, failure unheard of, unthinkable;

where life was good, wholesome and innocent;

like never before,

like never again,

on the west side

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The Installment Dealer

House to house he travelled

the installment dealer

wearing shoe leather down to the cobblestone

on his route he challenged the seasons;

he appeared on your front porch, he was known for

he came well recommended;

he was invited in, offered tea and coffee cakes

he sat in the best chair; came with samples from

Gilbert Drapery; not the most beautiful or the most

expensive, but what his clients could have easily afforded;

whatever he brought was good enough, who knew any better?

Mrs. Walenski made her selections; the installment dealer

reached for his payment book; five dollars now and a dollar a

week; Mrs. Walenski's head fell almost to the floor, her large

eyes fixed upon the payment book, then shifted slowly to the

installment dealer;

"Mister Satin," she said as she held out her large hands

"Have another piece of coffee cake, I made it myself"

"I'll take what you can give me," said the installment dealer as

he set his tea cup down and reached into his jacket for his pencil;

"You'll give me more next time," he said as he took a bite of

coffee cake, crumbs falling to his lap that he brushed to the floor;

Mr. Satin arrived at his next appointment; on the south side to visit

an Italian family; he entered an empty flat, was greeted by skinny

children and a zaftig woman who hugged him so close he nearly

disappeared into her bosom; it's another poor family story; they've

just arrived and haven't a cent; "I'll take what you can give me,"

said the installment dealer, "you'll give me what you can next time;"

The Italian woman embraced him; his frail frame disappeared

once again into her bosom; the children laughed out loud;

"I'll pick you up on Wednesday morning at nine, we'll go see

Gladman, you'll have the most beautiful home on the south side"

 

the installment dealer sold everything, you name it, he sold it;

he bought by Pritikin, by Midwest; on Halsted, on Jefferson

Boulevard; furniture, clothing, silk; any household necessity

and what a schmoozer! at three times the price he could sell a

shmate to a princess or a Rolls Royce to a pauper;

 

he was a household name; like a part of the family; invited to all

the goyishe simchas...weddings, communions, whathaveyou; was

there at the baptism of Esposito the Italian's son, at the funeral of

Wisnewski's cousin; was there when you needed him, when you

didn't have a dime;

 

the installment dealer; the customer peddler; with his payment

book, installment plans, his samples and his kind heart; he took

care of business that your family should have what it needed,

that his family should have what it needed

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Razel, A Rose (For Rose Satin)

A woman I never knew

for she lived not long enough

to have known me in this life

she was my zayde's reddest rose,

she was his faithful and loving wife

they shared together the truest love

bound not by legal ties, but bound by

sanctity and respect, and the beauty in

her eyes; she was as strong as the

strongest bridge, gentle as an autumn

breeze, her soothing voice, her placid

touch, could calm the raging seas;

intimidated not by modern things,

by progress fast or slow; and by any

device for a pizza slice, she always went

with the flow; though held traditions close

at heart, she lived in the present tense; her

family came first and foremost, with love,

concern, and reverence; and when she

passed away, I have been told, zayde's heart

it nearly froze; until her memory thawed the

chill and softened it again, like the petals of

a beautiful rose

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The Labor Zionist Alliance (L.Z.A.)

The Labor Zionist Alliance

Farband Chapter

working for the new homeland

Palestine

Israel

the land of our forefathers

(our people);

meetings take place, ideas for raising money

(raising consciousness)

raising the understanding of how important it

was for the Jewish people to have a land of their own;

a place (a special place) to call home,

to call their very own;

the meetings

the stained black-bottomed coffee cups

and smoldering cigarette butts in square

glass ashtrays

(they really smoked back then; cigars, too);

they drank coffee, and nobody knew from

cappuccino or Sweet and Low;

they called the meeting to order by pounding a

gavel (a real wooden gavel)

I saw it once in zayde's top drawer;

and the work continued

work for the homeland

The Labor Zionist Alliance

the workers, the backbone

the heart and soul,

the toil and tears of a young

growing nation

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Sam Satin (left) and Dr. Max Dolnick

Dr. Max Dolnick

Dr. Dolnick was a quiet man

a bespectacled and thin man, of frail health

a close friend of my zayde

eloquent, scholarly

an ardent Zionist

recruited zayde

to be an ardent Zionist

Dr. Max Dolnick

a good friend, an intimate friend

they never dined, never socialized

embraced ideas and loyalty––respect––but never each other

not a rich man, Dr. Dolnick

gave money to his patients who could not afford

their prescriptions; he did not drive

zayde would occasionally drive him in his '41 Nash to see

his patients; and zayde smoked too much back then

Dr. Dolnick said "Sam, quit smoking now and you'll live

another forty years;" zayde quit smoking and lived

another forty years;

I remember the portrait of Dr. Dolnick hanging from the

landing at the Dr. Max Dolnick Community Center

it was the first thing you saw as you came in through the

front door, a portrait of a man with a hollow wood like face,

wearing small, round glasses circling small round eyes;

so, there I was one day, skimming the pages of the telephone

directory looking for a namesake, a relative, a landsman

someone who could tell me more about Dr. Dolnick,

someone who could bear witness to the man and his existence,

his friendship with my zayde

any detail

a photograph

a memoir

a faint recollection

a story (made up or not); anything to inspirit the myth

something to confirm that there was a man who I never knew

who meant so much to a man I knew so well

whose car I drove, whose bed I slept near, whose hand I touched

the same hand that outstretched and greeted

Dr. Max Dolnick;

as for me, I never saw the man but for his portrait hanging

but often had I touched the hand that had often touched his;

I never heard him speak though I have heard others speak of him;

he was a friend of my zayde's, a dear friend, a close friend

and one day in a distant time and place, when our spirits together

will be, will Dr. Max Dolnick be a friend to me

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United Pavolotcher Society, Waldheim Jewish Cemetery, Forest Park, Illinois

The United Pavolotcher's Society

 

How alike we are to the seeds of trees

that plant their roots so deep into the ground;

we, whose roots share a common tree,

planted deep beneath a common soil;

how alike are we to clouds that spread their

shadows far across the landscape; clouds that

rain heavy water and soak our common soil,

drench our common roots, and sprout our common seeds;

we, who are the scion of past lives and past lands,

uprooted and transplanted like trees, trees that survived

the cyclones and torrents, the passages of time and

(r)evolution; dusk and dawn, days and nights of prayers

and psalms, that one day we will be reunited in our land, 

our home, our Pavoloches, our Krasilovs, beneath the

ground, upon the ground, and far reaching to the sky;

we will drink sweet wine from Elijah's cup and sing

Dayenu; this is our brotherhood, our sisterhood,

our resting place in a land far from the land of our

fathers; but it is only temporary;

we have paid our dollar for our plots of land we

wait the day to answer God's calling when we will

awake to a new and brighter sunrise; when we will

walk once more along dusty roads; when we will smile

upon our neighbors, and raise our voices high above the

wailing call of the shofar blaring freedom, redemption

and salvation;

we will be reunited with our land and our people,

with our God Almighty who will bring us forth

once again from bondage and deliver us to our

promised land;

and though it may not be Zion it is our Zion

the place we rest eternally

the land of our home

for today, tomorrow,

and for all time

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5912 N. Mapleweood Avenue, Chicago

Maplewood

There is a modest three flat on Maplewood Avenue

where my family used to live; and I lived there, too,

as a little boy; and during the great migrations from

the west side to the north, to a newer, better, safer

place to live, came my family to Maplewood Avenue;

they came with old furniture and new hopes, strong

traditions and happy hearts, joyful hearts; bubbe and

zayde slept in the back bedroom that overlooked the

yard, garage, and alley; grama and grampa had the

smaller bedroom, shaded by the Zanin's building

next door; mom and aunt Phyllis slept on the back

porch that was converted into a girl's room; how

carefree the times, how innocent and tranquil;

breakfast was served on the round kitchen table

that eventually became mine and since discarded;

lunch on the job or at school or at a friend's house;

dinner on the table at the same time every night,

everyone had their place at the table on Maplewood;

and if someone liked their vegetable soup strained,

or the skin taken off their cold chicken pulkies, they

didn't have to ask; if someone spilled their ginger ale

or left crumbs of challah on the table it didn't matter

and no one became angry;

at home on Maplewood; where your friends were made

to feel like family and your family felt like friends;

where the door was always open and the fridge was always

full; the laughter always hearty and warmth and love a

comfort to anyone who sought it;

we walked up three flights of stairs to get home

on Maplewood; zayde would take one stair at a time,

sometimes he would stop and rest on the landing between

floors, looking out of the window with his hand resting upon

the polished banister;

 

on Maplewood there was a mezuzah on every door post;

a clank in every radiator; a fake fireplace in the frontroom

that might have been real once but no one knew for sure;

there was a little table and stool in the front hall where

the telephone was; the phone was black and you dialed it

with your finger or a pencil; zayde would dial one number

at a time, slowly; he would look at the first number, insert his

finger in the dial and spin it round hard; then the second,

the third, and so forth; sometimes he would place the handset

down until he had finish dialing, then would slowly lift it up

and press it hard to his ear;

Maplewood was where family was; Maplewood was family;

Maplewood was where the Blechman Cousin's Club met to

play cards and talk and drink schnapps; where zayde argued

about uncle Moysh smoking in the house; zayde thought that

since he quit smoking everyone should quit smoking;

On Maplewood; where Jakie came to spend a few days to recover

from some very personal surgery that left him sitting on an inflatable

bagel; Maplewood, where Phyllis and Art came to sleep and to weep

the night their little Shari died; where on Wednesday bubbe would

come home from downtown with her pretty little hat and white gloves

from returning what she bought at Mandel Brothers on Monday;

where friends would come to play kayoodle and mah-jong;

where lovers kissed their first kiss outside the front door

(even my first kiss was there outside the front

door on Maplewood);

 

Maplewood

the only home I ever knew that was a home

where I was a child

where my zayde lived

where Friday night we all ate together

where we watched Ed Sullivan in the frontroom on

Sunday nights; where I played Tarzan and even had a

rubber Tarzan knife;

 

when zayde would come home late on a Saturday night

I would lie awake in my bed listening for the sound of the

car door slamming then zayde walking slowly up the stairs

and in the door; I would wait until he took out his teeth and

pulled the covers over his head; we fell asleep so quickly and

begin to snore which put me fast to sleep;

Maplewood

where I got the chicken pox and wet the bed

where Lucky gave me my first (and only) black eye

where some bullies punctured my first basketball

where I waited outside in my little baseball uniform

for Arnold to pick me up

(which he never did);

Maplewood

where I was afraid to go into the basement alone

where I thought I heard witches laughing on the back porch

where jesters chased me in my dreams

where zayde let me come into his bed

where I had my first giraffe

where the Hofmanns were our neighbors

Mrs. Hart, the landlady

David Mason, the only boy who ever invited me over

Mr. Schick who fixed television sets

the O'Brians and Haleys who would greet you from their yards;

Maplewood

the street where I lived 

once as a boy;

where I can still feel zayde's beard scratching my face as I

snuggled up beside him on his bed; where I can still smell

the aroma of SkinBracer faintly on his face; where I can hear

the sound of him scraping his burnt challah over the sink

and sipping his tea from the saucer, and cursing every other

driver, and leaving home for the last time...on Maplewood

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Dr. Max Dolnick Community Center, 6122 N. California Avenue, Chicago

The Center

Where did zayde go every morning?

every afternoon?

every night?

what was his business?

his doings?

his occupation?

he founded a community center on

California Avenue; named it after his

beloved friend Dr. Max Dolnick;

 

the Center was his life, the very center

of his life; there from morning till night

making necessary plans and arrangements

looking after everything that required looking after;

I remember the red calendar book he kept inside

of the right top drawer, or sometimes left open

upon his desk; every day a different function:

meetings, luncheons, affairs, dinners, banquets,

rummage sales, bazaars, and of course the High

Holiday services, that was the most important

event of the year;

how he would haggle with Cantor Lind over his salary,

but zayde would always get his way; Cantor Lind was

worth twice what he was paid and would have worked for

half of that; he told me on the phone one day how he loved

my zayde, how he embraced him and how he had even kissed

him once upon his face out of sheer admiration for the man;

there were many special people at the Center; Hymie Drucker,

uncle Art's father, worked nights and smoked in the bathroom;

he only took a puff or two before putting the cigarette out

between his fingers, stasheingit behind his ear for later;

Elnora Wilson was the first black person I ever knew, she

worked for my zayde and called him Mister Satin, which

seems quite odd to me now; 

and did they argue; zayde must have fired her a

thousand times; Elnora took care of me when I

was young, just like she took care of zayde as

he got older;

 

one summer afternoon, she sat me down at the

large wooden table in the kitchen at the center;

I must have been around five years old and the

Cubs game was on an old black and white T.V.

with a coat hanger antenna; Elnora asked me if

I wanted something special (of course I did!);

 

so, she cut a square slice of vanilla ice cream

from the carton and dropped it into a bowl; then,

she took out a bottle of Coke from the fridge and

poured the Coke on top of the ice cream, gave me

a spoon and set the bowl down in front of me...

"your grandad likes these," she said; it was my

first Coke float; I remember Elnora every time

I have one;

 

Elnora had many children––nieces, nephews and

other relations––who would come to work at the

Center on special occasions, especially during the big

Pioneer Women bazaar; her son-in-law, A.J., was the

first person to let me go into the boiler room

(because zayde never let me); Wilma-Jean, Elnora's

daughter, was very beautiful (I thought she was

Diana Ross the first time a saw her!); she worked in

the coat check during the bazaar;another daughter,

Bertha, would work in the kitchen with Elnora,

Bertha's children found their mother dead one

morning in her bed; they said that something burst

in her brain; but she wasn't the first, or the last, of

Elnora's children to die so very young (or tragically);

so many memories of the Center, of zayde behind his

desk, arguing with someone on the telephone, locking

up at night to go home, shaking both doors extra hard to

make sure they were locked;

 

I would often come and have lunch with zayde at the Center

as my grammar school was just across the street; we would sit

in his office and eat together, or go to Robby's where zayde

would have mushroom barley soup; "give me the barley and

keep the mushrooms," he used to say to our waitress Barbara

Sullivan; he would eat chicken or a cheese sandwich (he

would only eat Muenster!) and a baked apple or rice pudding

for dessert that he would drown in half and half;

and the Center had a leaky roof that always resisted mending;

zayde was always worried about that roof;

I loved sitting in zayde's chair behind his big desk, looking

through the scribbled-on pages of his date book; I was a child

and never worried about leaky roofs or date books; in the end,

the leaky roof always wins;

so, fold the tables, stack up the chairs and return the table

linen; pack up the files and lock up all the doors (be sure

to shake them extra good and hard); 

 

we say goodbye to the past and remember how good it was;

we pick up the phone one last time and dial SHeldrake 3-4398;

the number has been disconnected but there is still a familiar

voice on the other end of the line; it's Mr. Satin calling from

the Dolnick Center...I'll take that call

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Elnora Wilson, zayde and my grandmother, Mary Lurie. June 26, 1976, Evanston, Illinois

Friends and Rivals

 

Friends and rivals filled zayde's life

with joy, laughter and a bisel strife

Mr. Fink and zayde would constantly fight

it didn't matter who was wrong or right

it could have been cloudy and one would say bright

it could have been daytime, the other would say night

with Katz it was a difference of opinions and views

about politics, religion, Israel, and Jews

about who blew the shofar on Yom Kippur eve

and how much the bluzer in turn would receive

with Max Clar there friendship replete

with Pinsky rapport, though impetus to compete

with Stein due respect, with Patt nothing less

with Fannie Poster agitation, but handled with finesse

but in times of commotion and subtle disarray

zayde somehow managed to always get his way

if he hollered or screamed it was not to offend

for he loved and respected both rival and friend

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Right to left: Sam Satin, me, unknown, Reuben Pinsky, Alfred Fink. Dolnick Center, September 1979.

The Shvits

On Roosevelt Road

take a shvits, trim and massage

such a mechayeh!

"Feh"

"Feh," zayde would say

as he gave a little grepts

always made me laugh

False Teeth

Sometimes falling out

put them in a cup at night

I tried them on once

Pants Over Pajamas

Just like Dick Van Dyke

pants over his pajamas

in time for supper

Tea

Sugar cube in mouth

spill hot tea on the saucer

takes a little slurp

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Chaver Satin (In the Words of His Friends)

A friend to all

to those who knew him from the Center

those who knew him from shul

those who knew him as a neighbor

those who knew him as I knew him

chaver means friend

who is there when you need a friend

Chaver Satin was there when you needed a friend

Chaver Satin was there when you needed a favor

especially to book a room with short notice

he would always manage to squeeze you in somehow

Chaver Satin would make sure you had what you needed

that the coffee was set up and the tablecloths were clean

and if you asked for a donation, Chaver Satin would write

you a check––maybe a small check––but you could always

count on Chaver Satin

and Chaver Satin was stubborn

Chaver Satin always had to do things his way

but his way was always for the best

Chaver Satin––no matter how stubborn––was always fair

Ttre aren't many people left in the world like Chaver Satin,

a true and dedicated friend whose words are worth their

weight in gold, who you can call at anytime if you need to

but then again, there never were many people in the world

like Chaver Satin

Prelude to Waldheim

I was only fifteen; had my learner's permit

zayde would pick me up at home on Washtenaw

he would move over and slide back the front seat

the long drive to the cemetery was getting too much

for him and seeing how I could drive, and was a good

driver, (even at fifteen), everyone felt better about

zayde not driving so far;

 

I knew the way to the cemetery. I had gone with zayde

so many times before: California to Lawrence, right on

Lawrence to Manor; left turn, cross the train tracks,

continue south to Irving Park turn left on Harlem until

you arrive at the front gate of Jewish Waldheim Cemetery;

first we would stop at the office and zayde would go

inside and take care of business; I would turn on the

radio while he was inside (he wouldn't let me play it

when we were driving); zayde returned and we would

drive to where the family plot was he would survey the

graves: bubbe's, little Shari's, his friends', his own; 

I liked looking at the pictures on the headstones

sometimes you had to lift a metal cover to see the

picture sometimes they were locked like bubbe's was;

 

zayde would tell me not to walk on the people

zayde would pick up twigs and fallen leaves from

around bubbe's grave; he would walk, row by row,

making mental notes of any problems: weeds, chips in

the headstones, grass that needed cutting;

we would stop at the office once more before we left so

zayde could report any problems; we would leave the cemetery

and go for a bite; we wouldn't talk much on the way home;

occasionally, zayde would comment on my driving, that I was

going too fast or too slow; but he was diplomatic about it;

he would drop me off at home and slide over behind the wheel

pushing the seat up and re-adjusting the mirrors; he thanked me

for taking him and then drove off; sometimes I would kiss him

goodbye; I would wait until he crossed Devon Avenue before

going inside, often wondering how many more times I would

drive zayde to the cemetery before the last time I would drive

zayde to the cemetery

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Edgewater Hospital, Chicago.

Yellow Jaundice

I took zayde to the doctor for a check up

before his annual pilgrimage to uncle Al's

for the winter; I waited outside for a long

time in a corridor at Edgewater Hospital;

zayde came out, was silent, he said he

would have to be admitted at once, that

he wasn't going to be able to go to

California, not now, anyway;

the doctor said it was jaundice his skin

had a yellow tinge, his eyes were yellow;

they would have to run tests to see what was

making zayde yellow; they found that he had a

blockage somewhere in his stomach that would

have to be removed (I thought it was because he

ate too much challah);

the date was arranged, surgery postponed because

he was running a fever; they said despite his age he

was healthy enough to undergo the operation but they

offered no prognosis;

everyone came in from out of town; when they opened

him up they found cancer in his pancreas;

he survived the operation, was put into intensive care;

what a horrible place...the man in the next bed was

recovering from open-heart surgery; he was pale and

had tubes coming out from everywhere (what a sight);

there was never any talk of recovery or of zayde going

home; just observation and getting zayde strong enough

to eat;

 

doctors came in and out; nurses, some nasty some nice,

forced ice chips and apple juice into zayde's dry mouth;

all I did was take zayde for a check-up

I'll Take You Home Now, Zayde

There were times when I thought the best thing

for zayde was to simply take him home; if he's

going to recuperate, why not let him recuperate

in his own bed? if he's going to get well again,

why not let him get well in his own bed? if he's

ever going to eat again why not let him his eat

his own challah, drink his own borscht and sip

his own tea from his own cup in his own bed in

his own house? and if he is going to die, what

better place to die than in his own bed in his

own house?

I suggested that we take zayde home but no

one agreed; the hospital was the best place

for him, they would say, he would have the

proper care and attention; I'll take zayde home, 

I would say to myself I'll give him the proper

care and attention he needs," but no one would

listen to a teenage boy; had they, maybe zayde

would have gotten well; had they, maybe he

could have gone to California; had they, maybe

he would have never died; had they...

Witness

 

Six months dying in a small stinky room

Edgewater Hospital; where his body shrank

smaller each passing day; a tube in his neck

sustained his life which wasn't much of a life,

it merely postponed death, put it on hold; fed

through one tube, urinated through another, yet

another in his arm delivering sustenance to make

him strong;

he soiled his sheets; sores and blisters on his back

and legs were constant ailments though we tried to

keep him comfortable by rubbing him down with

lotions;

 

moaning and dying more each day; every painful

movement brought him closer to the end; he counted

rabbis and salt shakers, he recollected his bar-mitzvah,

his wedding; called out names of his parents and prophets,

childhood friends and relations; sang and chanted and

spoke in tongues;

but he was still my zayde

 

and fascinated by it all, I observed his death witnessing the

passing of a life from one realm to another

Pesach in Acapulco

 

Six months of suffering

watching others suffering

as zayde lay, weightless,

suffering;

I was sixteen

zayde's car was mine now

it would never be his again

 

I drove his car––my car––

to Edgewater Hospital to see

him everyday; no one knew I

wasn't going to school

for six months I watched my

zayde dying, watched my family,

coming and going, in and out,

consultations with doctors,

decisions not being made

grama and grampa had a trip

long planned to Israel

go, we told them, pa will be alright;

mom and dad had a trip

long planned to Hawaii

go, we told them, pa will be alright;

I was invited to Acapulco for Pesach

with Sari's family

go, they told me, zayde will be alright;

I went one last time to see him, to tell

say goodbye and to wait for me; he was a

shadow of the zayde I had once known;

I told him, though I was sure he did not

understand, that I was going to Acapulco

for Pesach; zayde always knew he would

die on yontif;

I was at breakfast on Saturday morning

at a kosher hotel in Acapulco, Mexico;

it was Shabbos

it was Pesach

it was also yontif

suddenly, I was overcome by morbid thoughts

I ran to the phone in the corridor outside the

dining room; I called collect, mom answered

I asked if everything was okay, told her I felt

that something was wrong, maybe with zayde

she couldn't hold back that something was

wrong, the pauses were too long; she told me

zayde died last night, on yontif, on Shabbos,

just as he knew he would;

everyone had just eaten dinner; they had been to

the hospital a few hours earlier; a nurse called

advising that the family should come, it wouldn't

be long before he would be gone;

I hung up the phone and returned to my breakfast,

informed my gracious hosts that my zayde had died;

they consoled me but I did not need consolation, I

excused myself and walked out into the hot morning

sun, stopped in the circular driveway, there was a

palm tree there; I looked up towards the sky and said

aloud to God: please take care of my zayde

 

I did not return for the funeral, zayde would not have

wanted me there anyway; I had done enough I had

comforted him enough; he had waited until I had gone

away to die, not wanting me to see him that way,

overcome by the final shadow, wrapped in his shroud,

covered by his talis; I hoped they had shaved him nice

and combed his hair with a wave like he liked it

when I returned home from Acapulco my family was

still in town; I don't know what everyone thought about

my not being at zayde's funeral; selfish, I imagined and

wouldn't have blamed them if they had; but zayde knew

why and understood, that was the most important thing;

I can't remember the long flight home, it was so long ago

maybe it was all a dream; perhaps I hadn't gone to Acapulco

at all; maybe I had invented the entire thing...

and life went on; I went back to school, was held back a year

until I made up what work I had to, and did; I drove alone to

the cemetery many times; I talked to zayde, told him about my

life; I never cried until that day, nearly a year later...I was at

Sari's house and it suddenly occurred to me that my zayde was

no longer there;

I locked myself in the bathroom and I cried, remembering all

we had been through, zayde and me; all of those afternoons in

the hospital; all of those things we said and shared; all of the

things I had seen that I probably should not have seen; all the

roast beef sandwiches on white toast with mayo I ate in the

hospital lunchroom sat atop a red vinyl swiveling stool at

the counter;

 

zayde's soul was finally at rest inside of me; our lives, mine

on earth and his in heaven, could go on, peacefully, together, 

united by our memories, our souls and the love we had and

often shared and still, to this day, remain

Shattered Dreams (1981)

 

Shattered dreams

on the laughing porch

with one toy box, giraffe,

and the white wicker tantrum;

seeing and feeling one hand above

my head as the gray man sleeps

besides me, as he always does;

a child's peace of mind

seeing images through thread-wound

rings, the mind's eye of a little boy;

playing games on checkerboard floors

always trying to find turtles and birds

buried in the yard;

the peeling of the false brick-like siding;

the clothes line, and the other line;

the little blue pool, always waiting for

the other children to come and play;

my zayde died there,

I can still hear him in my dreams.

not calling names, or counting rabbis,

but reaching out a thin and frail hand

through delusions in his mind;

delusions implanted by illness and disease;

as he lay there waiting to die alone, so did I;

the sand ran all around my feet, the sun,

scorching my skin; the beach and the hourglass 

were one, but fate was far beyond the setting sun;

time shattered dreams once more,

while smiles turned to frowns;

shattered dreams of a little boy and

an old man and a life long lived,

lived well, but ended as do all lives;

as will mine;

when will time not shatter dreams?

when will our lives not end like

sandy beaches? when will our

childhood nightmares cease to

torment us waking us to horrors

in the middle of a peaceful night's

sleep?

forever is never

and never it seems

will time shatter time

instead of our dreams

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My Zayde

My zayde was an old man

from the day I first knew him

until the day he passed away

we shared a small bedroom with

two twin beds; I was glad to have

someone to sleep with

he had two dressers

one is now mine; it is my

most beloved possession

my zayde would take his

teeth out before going to bed

he would rinse his mouth with

 

warm salt water in the morning;

he would eat toasted challah and

drink Sanka for breakfast

he wore thick eye glasses,

a hat, and a cardigan sweater

with a shirt and tie

he had white hair and a

white moustache; combed his

hair so it made a wave

(my hair does that now)

he used an electric razor to shave

he'd splash on SkinBracer that I

 

could taste when I kissed him;

after I moved away I would still

sleep at zayde's on Friday nights

we would watch Sanford and Son

and Chico and the Man; sometimes

he would let me stay to watch Johnny

I couldn't  fall asleep until I heard zayde

get out of bed and say I'll pish, take out

my teeth, and come right to bed

on Saturday morning he would drop me

off at home or sometimes I would go with

him to shul; then we'd go to Robby's for lunch

he ate there almost every day

all the waitresses loved him and

called him Sam; even the cook

 

would come out and say hello;

zayde drove a big blue Chevy Malibu

the seats would burn you in the summertime

zayde took me to a picnic once on

the south side; my zayde was a

beautiful man; he was kind and

 

he loved me more than anyone;

one day I hope to be someone's zayde

a great-grandfather to my grandson's son

I will talk about my zayde

how he would sit in the yard on

summer afternoons wearing bermuda shorts,

 

a white sleeveless undershirt, black socks

and slippers while reading the Forwards

and fall asleep on the mesh webbed chair

 

while I would play in the yard; grama would

call us up for supper and we would eat cold

chicken sandwiches on challah with mayonnaise

my zayde reminds me of a day just like today;

cloudy, warm, and gray; and my zayde is still a

part of me, and now he is a part of you

his beautiful memory enshrined in our

hearts, our minds, and upon these pages

forever

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Obituary

  

SATIN

 

Sam (Sheika) Satin

beloved husband of the late Rose (Razel),

devoted father of Mary (Bernard) Lurie,

Jack, Alex (Shirley),

devoted zayde of Phyllis, Arthur,

Terri, Bob, David, Diane, Michael,

Jeff, Mark, Jamie, Cory,

Neil, Ricky, Ross, Tracey, and Glenn.

Founder, manager and chairman of Dr. Max A. Dolnick

Community Center,

Dr. Dolnick High Holiday Services,

President United Pavolotcher Society since 1925,

Westside Pinsky Farband Shule,

Sec'y Ben-Gurion branch Labor Zionist Alliance,

member of Bai Jacob Congregation,

Associated Talmud Torahs, member Friends of Pioneer Women,

member Association of Americans and Canadians in Israel,

member of Krasilover Verein,

active in Jewish National Fund,

Israel Bonds, Jewish United Fund,

member of the Northwest Home for the Aged,

Histraduth.

Loved by all who knew him.

In lieu of flowers contributions to the Pioneer Women would

be appreciated.

Services Tuesday, April 8, 1980

2 p.m. at Original Weinstein & Sons Chapel 3019 W. Peterson.

Interment United Pavolotcher Cemetery,

Jewish Waldheim.

Chapel visitation at time of services. Information 561-1890.

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Acknowledgements

 

Special thanks to Dr. James Fairhall, DePaul University;

Dr. Albert Erlebacher, DePaul University; Abbott Chrisman;

Alex Satin; Mary and Bernard Lurie; Terri Morris;

Miriam Mayer; Aviva Sorkin; Cantor Phil Lind; Bina Nadler

Text Copyright ©1994 and 2019 by R.M. Usatinsky

Illustrations Copyright ©1994 and 2019 by Judith Sol-Dyess

 

 

 

 

All Rights Reserved

Original book design and layout by Richard G. Smith

Photos courtesy of the author's collection

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